Future....what future?

Looking at all that has been happening around me, well, the main bulk is the fact that we are in a recession. Technical or not i don't care, end of the day its still a recession nevertheless. Ironically the stock market is going up and we are now facing a so called 'property bubble'. Maybe its just me but i really do not understand what is going on.

Well the hot topic lately is the prices of public housing. Well public housing, to me, sounds like cheap affordable housing...no? Doesn't seem like to me, in all honestly, given my current situation, i cannot foresee myself affording a home for my family of my own and may even live on under the roofs of others. Well, one could say 'that's what family is for", then again, do you ask your family to buy you underwear/pads? It could be my pride but i feel that there are some things that you just have to do yourself and not seek others to achieve it.

Pardon me for all the negativity, but i just don't want to live a life where i am in debt, where that the meaning of life is to service my debts. If that is the case then what meaning does life have? Life it to the fullest my @!%@# is this is how my future is going to be, worse still is this progresses on to my children and their children and so on. Worse still is trying to picture my life when i am old, never being able to 'relax till death' and instead working (or trying to get money) servicing my debts still. What use is of a future when there is nothing special to look forward to?

Could be just me having a negative streak, but i cannot help but to feel that there are many others around me that face this too. bah.

Changes and....Veronica?!?!?!?!

There are going to be some changes in here. i feel that yes...i am a pig. i'm too lazy to exercise but nevertheless its an ongoing goal of mine. I guess updates would come once in a long while to have a better view of effects and changes rather than a 'constant' one that has been in previous posts.

I think that since i'm of one that has so much things to comment about, i guess i will use this space more of a commentary to the things that affect or matter to me. makes more sense anyway for a blog, and gives me more purpose as to use it too.

Thats the changes aspect now for that damn name in the title. Well, maybe i'm slow but i only learnt of it this morning, that Archie Andrews is proposing Veronica. Well i admit i have not been following much of the comic series for quite a few years, but nevertheless it has shocked me to learn of that news. Personally i felt for Betty to be the choice when it came to the 'stupid' love triangle that has lasted most of the series. Bah, if Archibald ever marries Ron i'm going to stop reading Archie comics (as in the comic for him not the whole publication company) and just stick to faithful Jughead Jones. Better yet, make Jughead and Betty date or something, i believe a lot of people would be happy with that. Me buying this 'dramatic' few issues would be dependent on the outcome honestly. I hate the idea of Archie and Veronica, just hate it, ever since i started reading the series as a kid. Well end of the day i'll just buy it and keep it.

On social aspects, i do have to be envious of Mr L's progress and especially his discipline and determination to lose weight and look good. Having known him for quite a few years it is rather a huge change towards his appearance and i guess its a good thing for him =) I'm also glad that he is able to balance work social and exercise nicely without compromising one or the other. Keep it up good sir! Can see many good things coming his way.

Err...politics. pfft. I do not deny that i'm one that reads the local newspapers and alternative sources of news. I want to make it known that i do not have any political affiliations and i'm just a mere citizen who supports those who would give me what i want (yes i know that sounds vague but neither do i know how to be specific here, i'm sorry for my terrible command of the engrish language!). Yet again i see no surprise in the political climate in singapore. I've yet to see something interesting that appeals to me yet. Then again i feel very much for the issues raised as i myself am one who has been affected by the changes in the climate in my little country. Do hope someone would be able to address these issues and i do to see greener pastures for myself some time soon.

Oh yeah, anyone want to hire a research analyst with no relevant experience? Inside me i'm dying to be one yet the reality of the situation is that its rather impossible here. *sigh* I question why i even bothered to spend so much money and get a degree when end of the day i cannot do anything that is of relevance or something i'm interested in. Nevertheless i'm thanking for the opportunitythat i have at the moment. I can't deny that it 'gets the job done' but i'm one that yearns for internal happiness rather than practicality at times (yes i know considering that i'm a person of logic). bah.

bleh

did another run today
slow as hell thats all i can say
i felt so good running, thought i did a good time, only to realise was so slow. depressing

just had a little test run after my exams on sunday

just feels i cannot fun for nuts
maybe i just don't love running as much as it is beneficial for me :(

1.77km in 10.24 seconds, brings about to about 10.37km/h
as much as it feels like such a short distance in such a long time, come to think of it it is an improvement in terms of speed, just got to try to increase the distance of the run =)

oh well, would probably test it out the next week, gotta aim to lose all this weight!

Update overdue

I admit i've been lazy to update but anyways here's what has been going on for me:

Reservist
had ippt during reservist, clocked a timing of 14minutes 59 seconds for a distance of 2.4, basically its a FAIL!

which brings me to my test run today, i was too hungry when i left the house so i decided to do a run within a time of 12 minutes to see how far i can run. and not surprising i only ran a distance o 1.8km. makes it kinda slow my pace =|

but then a reservist buddy had a point, upon knowing that i can run longer distances as compared to 2.4km and also not feeling tired after a 2.4km run, he mentioned that i never 'push' myself into running, which i do admit is a flaw in my running style. I always seem to want to conserve energy for the runs, only putting in the stored energy only at the last portions of the run.

Oh well, see how well it goes with supplements etc, especially after my exams ;)

EDIT: forgot to put a little map of my run =|

70's Canto Pop is NOT for running

today's running route

time taken: 53.45 minutes
total distance: 7.35km
average speed: 8.25km/h

shitcakes, actually ran slower. pfft. ok potentially the same speed. i dunno. just looks slower.

though i'm glad i've managed to run further with each run. though a run a week doesn't seem like the smartest thing to do.

now my feet hurt. stupid stupid stupid.

Variations that cause big changes

I realised in my run yesterday, that because i did not take the time i ran off, i assumed it to be that i started at 7am, which may or may not be true. I only knew i got home at 7.45am.

IF (cause i cannot confirm) i did leave after 7, say 7.05 which may have actually happened but i just cannot affirm which time i actually left =|
it would mean i would have done the run in 42 minutes which would then also lead to me having run an average speed of 8.6km/h which brings me to about 8.6-8.25=0.35km/h faster than my previous run. This makes it pretty decent a rate considering my level of fitness

One extra thing to note about my run yestereday: it sucks to have to run and think that you have to go number 2 halfway during the run, most uncomfortable run EVA!

I also realised that in a span of a week, based on the weighing machine which i feel is not really accurate, i was at about 85 last week and now i'm fluctuating at about 82.8 - 83.2kg
something is not right